I figured the miscarriage following the first IVF was common enough that I still had the energy, hope and reason to try IVF again.
The protocol was similar:
- Two weeks of birth control pills to start then,
- 4 bottles each of Gonal-F and Repronex every day
- Cetrotide everyday
- HCG shot given on day 15
- Retrieval day 16
- 7 eggs retrieved, 4 fertilized
- One 9-cell, one-7 cell and two 3-cell embryos with severe fragmentation.
- All four transferred on Day 3
On February 12th, I got an early Valentine’s Day gift: a positive beta. I was shocked and thrilled at our good luck. As I wrote in my diary on 2/13:
“It’s a miracle. I’m pregnant again. IVF worked a second time in a row. I’m so grateful. My beta number is higher than last time, 315 but, of course, after our last go round, we’re gun-shy. I’ll feel better next Thursday after our first ultrasound.”
That weekend, the hubby and I went out for a festive Valentine’s Day and toasted our good fortune.
On the day of the ultrasound, we went in excited to see what was in store, never expecting a disastrous outcome. As I lay on the gurney with the technician’s wand sweeping my abdomen, I could see her puzzled look. She inserted the wand to get a better look but still nothing.
“At this point, I don’t see any pregnancy,” she finally said.
We were devastated. Why did this happen again? How could the pregnancy have vanished without any sign or symptom of miscarriage? What was going wrong at 6 weeks that seemed to cause this pattern of loss? I couldn’t bear the thought of trying again until I had some answers.